On the Times and a Newborn

Not too long ago someone we know quoted the great Charles Dickens, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times”. People across the planet probably feel this all too deeply, but having had a baby on a week where governments were scrambling to shut down economies, and hospitals were gearing up and creating boundaries for anyone that came in and out – it was a whole different dynamic.

Here I stand typing this, yes standing because a fussy one month old bodes for constant movement, and my mind starts to swirl from the moments of just Jon and I in the hospital for 3 days to being at home sans doctors appointments every day since. And it’s the most beautiful, wonderful hard season, that just takes some perspective alongside the moments of emotion!

It was the best of times…It was the worst of times…
Quiet & still hospital moments just the 3 of us.The broken expectation of our families meeting him in the hospital for the first time
Individualized care in the hospitalThe eeriness of an empty and on guard hospital
The beauty of technology unveiled in FaceTime and ZoomGrandparents, Aunts & Uncles not getting to hold their grandchild/niece/nephew right away
Completely still moments at homeFriends & family having to stay away from your home
Obligation is out the windowYou miss your routine, the beauty in which you get to serve & live
Taking in the beauty of your neighborhood & community The feeling of missing out on your first adventures elsewhere
The sun shining almost every dayMissing the sun shining in other places
Getting to be the most intentional with your babeMissing those “scheduled” firsts in church and leaving him for date nights
You don’t miss any of their developmentsYou wish you could experience him reacting to other spaces & faces
You look out at the indefinite period of time with hope and beliefYou look out at the indefinite period of time with broken expectations

For all the things I feel like I’m “missing” there are 1000 reasons why this season is beautiful, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard. And it’s okay to feel all the emotions that come with it. You do have broken expectations, but you also have an incredible gift. As long as you let the good and beautiful outweigh the sadness and overwhelm – you are doing great!


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I'm a native Atlantan, run loving foodie who got a little sideways in her nutrition and is learning how to train and fuel in a healthy way to continue to live life to the fullest. God created me beautifully and I desire to honor Him by being the best version of me. I want that for YOU also!

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